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MasterPieceintheMaking: January 2006

Monday, January 30, 2006

Hard lessons

As most of you already know, (news gets around in a small town), I was in a car accident on Saturday. Long story sort for those of you that don't know: I was headed home from welding class on 435 it had been raining so the roads were wet, I went to exit off and didn't break quickly enough. The car started into the turn, and then just kept going straight, into the exit sign. I wasn't hurt, my car wasn't too badly bangged up, but the sign didn't make it. God was looking out for me hard core with this one. A police officer that was there, said that if I had hit the sign head on, instead of just 2 feet to the side, it would have gone threw my windshield. Or if I had tried to force the car to turn more, the car would have rolled. I friend of mine told me that he saw a guy hit an exit sign once, and that the sign he hit got caught in his wheels and his car went end over head. So God was holding me close that day. So many things could have gone wrong, but God didn't let that happen. I do however feel that He allowed me to go off the road to teach me a lesson, with as little pain as possible. One, slow down on wet roads! And two, I think is a life's lesson, don't get cocky and make bad choices because you think you can handle it, because you think you have it all under control. I know now that I don't, I'm I going to apply that to other places in my life. Be smart, be safe. And don't walk on the edge because you think you have great balance and won't fall, odds are your balance isn't that great.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

:)


Hey all, Things have been really good! Just turned 20 yesterday! Eric picked me up at 9:30 or so in the morning and we drove alllllll day, well at least until 3:00 I think. We just took off into the country with the sun coming up across the fields it was sooo beautiful! Then he took me past Topika to a river/waterfall/creek thing that his boss used to hang out at when he was a kid. It was amazeing!! The river/creek was separated(sp?) by a HUGE plate of solid rock, at least a foot thick with no cracks or brakes that we could see. The water would flow across the face of this plate and over the edge in a waterfall into the other half of the river where massive bolders had fallen down the side of the hills and came to rest at its feet, leaving big flat surfaces to lie on and sunbath (Eric's boss said he has seen many a girl sunbathing out there in his time, or so he says :) ) It was breath taking, it reminded me of something out of Lord of the Rings, but maybe on a smaller scale. Of course I had to go exploring as far as I could go with just chucks on! Anyway, then we drove around the area that had been turned into a wildlife park of sorts. It hadn't been completely cleaned up though, for on our little adverture we found an abandoned research farm for KU. There were 2 buildings: a small house or office type building, and a collasped barn! And being who we are, we went poking around in the buildings, finding quite a bit of trash. We also found an old car that looked as though someone's pet elephant had used it as a bed! You couldn't even fit a child in to the front seat! Then we did dounuts in one of the fields with Eric's work truck. After that we slowly made our way home. When we got there Luke, Bob and J-Bob where there. Luke made dinner! Then all of us, Jason, Josh and John went bowling!! Being the sweetheart that he is, Jason paid for my shoes (thank you Jason!)We did three games in under 45 min.s! My high score was 135! I had a blast!! It was the best B-day I think I've ever had. Oh, I told my mom not to worry about making a cake this year, so Luke was sweet and bought me a mini cake from Wal-mart that was 50 cents and was going to expire today! It was good! I felt soo loved! God has blessed me with such good friends, and a wonderful boyfriend! Thank you all for your love, especially you Eric, that day will always be special to me in my memory.
~Thankyou Lord for the people in my life!
I Love you all!

Thursday, January 12, 2006

God is SOOOO good!


Well, I was soo furstrated with Ukozo, and how the conversation was going, so I talked to Bob, he suggested that the guy was looking at it from the phyiscal sense, so I thought that over and prayed hard before replying to him comment. This is how it went.

Ukozo: the teachings of one Jesus of Nazareth. Christ, that is. I was under the impression that Christianity was based on Christ. Am I wrong there?

Me: Just to Clarify, are you a christian? I think there is a misunderstanding here. When I use the terms "battle", "war", or "soldier" I mean them in the spiritual sense. I DO NOT support holy wars, or fist fights in the name of God. Let me explain; God is good, that is His very nature, but to know what good is, there must be something to compare it to, hence evil. And would it not follow that evil would hate good, or the devil hate God? And wouldn't it make sense that if people were trying to follow God and be good, that evil would make its mission to stop them at all costs? This is my battle field, this is where the warrior comes from. The bible tells us that we are in a spiritual battle, Good Vs Evil. "Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we DO NOT WRESTLE against flesh and blood, BUT AGIANST the rulers of darkness of this age, against SPIRITUAL hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places." Ephesians 6:11-12 In Matthew 4:1-11 Jesus Himself is tempted by satan, and wins the battle of wills. In Mark 5:1-20 Jesus casts out many demons from one man that He meets on His travels. In Mark 7:24-29 Jesus casts out yet another demon from a little girl. Jesus not only fought the spiritual, but He fought the evils of this world as well: bigotry, hate, greed, cruelty, ect. If you read through Matthew, Mark, Luke and John, you'll see that Jesus was not a pacifist, but a warrior in His own right, useing the weapons of truth, justice, holiness, and rightousness. And as christians we are called to do the same.

Ukozo: my apologies. as long as your battle is within, as long as you mean warrior symbollically, spiritually, instead of in the traditional sense, you are right, and I wrong to invade your DA page and start a silly argument.

Me: Thank you for your apologies, please except mine for the misunderstanding. I thought you were just trying to start a fight. I had to step back a minute and look at the whole thing with fresh eyes before I realized what it was that you were arguing about. I'm glad that got cleared up. seriously though, if you have any more queastions at all, I will be more than happy to try and answer them or find someone who can. Later,-Wolf

That was all God right there!! GOD ROCKS!

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Arrrrgggg...


I just started a deviant art site thing, were you can see my art on the web. It's been neat. Then I got this comment from someone about my user name which is WolfWarrior4God. I didn't really know how to respond, so dad and I put our heads together to try and answer this question, then it just went on from there. It's so hard to deal with this sometimes. I wish I was better at it, I freeze up and the things that I want to say don't come out in the right way if they come at all. So I turned to dad for help, so that God's word would be spoken in a coherant manner. It's very furstrating to me that I can't seem to do this on my own, and that people seem to always be looking for a fight. Why the hate? And why do they question me, but not the folks that believe in aliens and unicorns?!

Ukozo: you are a warrior?for which god do you fight?and when you strike, who gets hurt?violence is more or less satan to the one Christian god.it seems strange to me that you would call yourself a warrior.

Me: First, is this a serious question? Or are you just looking to bait? If this is a serious question then I would recommend looking at the many places in scriptures where Christians are compared to warriors and soldiers. Exodus 15:3 "The Lord is a warrior; Yahweh is His name." Psalms 45:1-5 "Mighty warrior, strap your sword at your side. In your majesty and splendor in your splendor ride triumphantly in the cause of truth, humility, and justice." Zephaniah 3:17 "The Lord your God is among you, a warrior who saves.He will rejoice over you with gladness. He will bring quietness with His love.He will delight in you with shouts of joy." and finally those places where the imagery of warriors and soldiers is used to remind us that the world is in a struggle for good. Ephesians 6:11-12 "Put on the whole armor of God that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the Devil for we do not wrestle against flesh and blood but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spritual hosts of weakness in the heavenly places."

Ukozo: meh. books can lie, ESPECIALLY if they've been translated as many times as the bible. I dissaggree with the symbolism you choose. christianity is a passifist religion. if you are not a passifist, I think you've chosen the wrong religion. if you are a passifist, your screen name should not claim that you are a warrior. if the christian struggle is a battle, the BATTLE is against ONLY yourself. if you bring your human conflict out into the world, you give your soul to evil and dischord and dishonor and cruelty and illusion. your name is your own, not mine obviously, so you go ahead and make it what you will. but I, and many others, think that the good in Christianity lies in peace, NOT conflict. I see no honor in a christian warrior. I see no glory. both in the present, and the past, all he has is shame. don't you want more than that?

Me: It is curious how may people dismiss the Bible has having lost any original meaning due to endless translation, sort of a modern cultural myth. What is amazing is that so many do this without having either seriously read it or investigated the scholarship around its accuracy. Do you have some scholarship to support your claim? Likewise I find that everybody in this country (claiming to be a Christian or not) assume that they know everything there is about the Christian faith, again sadly in many cases with little study.So why do you care? Is there some objective to this conversation? Do you consider yourself a Christian trying to correct a fellow believer? If so, great we all need each other from time to time to help us stay the course. On what bases do you conclude that Christianity is a passive belief, given that you apparently dismiss the Bible?

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Restless...


I woke up this morning from very strange dreams to the sound of my phone ringing. It sounded far off, and I couldn't remember what I had done with it the night before, so I went looking for it. I didn't find it, and the ringing stopped by the time I had gotten half way down my hall. I tried to remember where I had placed it, and who would be calling me. I found it on my nightstand. I thought that was odd, because when it was ringing, it sounded faint and far off, like it might have been in the kitchen or the bathroom. I thought "oh well" I had been in a deep sleep anyway. So I checked to see if there where any missed calls, there weren't. just thought I'd share that strangeness with you.
I've felt very restless this morning, still do, I can't think why that would be, but I is just the same.

Friday, January 06, 2006

Pie, shoulders, and giant freeks


"But I have trusted in Your mercy; My heart shall rehoice in Your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, because He has dealt bountifully with me."

This is my verse of the day!*victory jigg* I'm starting in Psalms because I find it up-lifting. This verse speeks Gods faithfulness to me. I can't explain why, but I feel God and His love through this verse. It helps to see where others have been, and that they still love and trust God. I guess to me it's proof that God will take care of all of us.
On another note, I was going through this time where I wanted more of God, but didn't seem to have the energy or drive to go after Him, so I was feeling pretty dry and crappy....crusty crap. The only thing I could think to do was pray, and I did. I just kept talking to God, I didn't care if it was pointless or if it sounded dumb, I just wanted Him. I think thats what got me through.
Now that energy is back and bader than ever, hehe, and I finally got my bible out!(happy now Luke?)
*Change of subject!* (just so you know)
I hurt my bad shoulder the other day, so I went to the docs, and they had me get x-rays and all that jazz, but nothing was broken, so with out actually saying it they told me they didn't have a clue and had me referred to the Othor docs in another building, then gave me some meds to help with the pain. waste of two and a half hours if you ask me. I have to go back next tuseday. poo.

"after much deep brain thingys in my head, I have decided to thank you..."
"PIE"